what to believe??

There have been some things that have come up in my life lately that I am just not so sure about. I want to think that I all of my 30 years of going to church would count for something but lately I'm not so sure. Yes, I was raised Church of Christ in a once conservative church, so I thought. I think I am conservative to this day when it comes to church. I am not one to hold my hands up during prayer or while singing and I am not one to clap and move my hips while singing in church. That's just how I was raised but not only that, I don't feel comfortable doing it anyways. Now here is where I don't know what to believe. All my life I have been told if one divorces due to a affair the other person is free to re-marry but if you divorce for any other reason or you are the one that had the affair you should not re-marry. I have looked at the scripture and it says just that,but is it really saying that. You can not marry or you will go to hell. OR is it saying I don't advise you to re-marry? I truly want peoples thoughts and view on this,even if I don't know you. I am so confused. I don't want to think one way if it really means another way. I don't want to make people feel like I am judging them either. I just want clarification for my own heart and soul not for anyone else or to prove someone wrong or right. Please, this is open for discussion and there will be no deleting a persons comment if I don't agree with it. This is something I have struggled with for a while. If you ask the people you were raised by of course you will get the answer you were raised with, but if you ask other people it will help seeing other views and make you think more. So if in fact anyone reads this blog don't be shy give it to me straight!

Fire Proof

A few weeks ago we went with our church family to see the new movie Fire Proof. It is a great Christian based movie basically dealing with what a lot of people are dealing with in there marriages. It is not everyday that they make a movie for theater, that number one is a Christian based movie and number two a actually movie that you can learn from spiritually. Now, it seems that everyone is going crazy about this movie saying it changed their life etc. I really wish I could say that it changed my life and we are good now but it didn't. I didn't even cry while watching the movie. Everyone else(not sure about JR) did and I feel kind of guilty for not crying,I guess I have cried enough. I feel like I missed something. I feel like God spoke to everyone else while watching the movie but he forgot to talk to me. Since the movie came out our church has started a class based on it and I hear there will be sermons from it etc. I pray I can get something out it from that and maybe I can figure out what I missed. To tell you the truth I am kind of sick hearing about it. I think it is sad that it took a movie for some people to say "Oh now I got it, I need to change". I would hope that going to church and reading your bible would do that for you. Maybe we just live in a world that has to have that kind of thing for the light to go off and be like duh,now I get it. Most of you know JR and I have been through a lot this past year. The movie should have hit home but I guess we have been praying and working on our marriage long before the movie so maybe I felt we were past that point and not turning back. In writing this I am figuring out that since we were past it ,the movie just brought up a lot of hard feelings that I have worked so hard at forgiving and forgetting. It was like I was being reminded of our past every time I hear about Fire Proofing your marriage and we actually had to Fire Proof it and now I am done and ready to move on or at least trying to move on. Now I am not saying don't go see the movie because I am all for it and we need to show that the movie makers need to make more Chritaian movies, I just wish people wouldn't talk about it every Sunday and make me re-live the past! That's what's on my heart this morning :)

this whole election thing...

here is my two cents on it all. I feel that whoever makes into office is what was actually suppose to happen.The saying "Everything happens for a reason" I think is true, now I could go on and on about that statement and give examples but I am ready for bed :) I will say that I am not going to worry about. I feel that God is watching out for us and if we do our part with prayer then what happens,happens and that's that :) Now do I have a guy in mind that I want to win, heck yeah I do. I am human!So people just pray about it...I'm just say'n!

Just a quick update

So my dad is home from the hospital. He is still recovering but at least he is HOME! As for the gig JR was going to do next weekend,that has fallen through. I just see it as everything happens for a reason and we may not ever know that reason but...life goes on and we look for other ways to live out our dreams. Speaking of dreaming....I wish I was dreaming right now. I haven't been sleeping well. I guess I have a lot on my heart. I am thinking I need a vacation! (**hint hint** honey)

I have become a blog stalker! Yes,I said it!! My name is Helen Diboll and I read blogs at 2am. It is funny to read peoples blogs from church. You really get to know that person or their family even though you have never said one word to them. The things people say crack me up! You have this vision of how they are but when I am reading their blog I realize that they are all just like myself and JR. One day I will leave a comment,most of the time someone else beats me too it. I am a little shy though,but most of all I am scared you have no clue who I am and then I would feel really stupid later :) I am a dork I know!

So that is what's going on here,just a mom/wife that cant sleep that much. Goodnight!

Pretty funny stuff

My wife sat down on the couch next to me as I was flipping channels. She asked, “What’s on TV?”I said, “Dust.”And then the fight started…=======================================================================My wife was hinting about what she wanted for our upcoming anniversary. She said, “I want something shiny that goes from 0 to 150 in about 3 seconds.”I bought her a scale.And then the fight started…=====================================================================When I got home last night, my wife demanded that I take her someplace expensive... so, I took her to a gas station...And then the fight started....=====================================================================After retiring, I went to the Social Security office to apply for Social Security. The woman behind the counter asked me for my driver's license to verify my age. I looked in my pockets and realized I had left my wallet at home.I told the woman that I was very sorry, but I would have to go home and comeback later.The woman said, 'Unbutton your shirt'. So I opened my shirt revealing my curly silver hair.She said, 'That silver hair on your chest is proof enough for me' and she processed my Social Security application.When I got home, I excitedly told my wife about my experience at the Social Security office.She said, 'you should have dropped your pants. You might have gotten disability, too.'And then the fight started...===============================================================My wife and I were sitting at a table at my high school reunion, and I kept staring at a drunken lady swigging her drink as she sat alone at a nearby table.My wife asked, 'Do you know her?''Yes,' I sighed, 'She's my old girlfriend. I understand she took to drinking right after we split up those many years ago, and I hear she hasn't been sober since.''My God!' says my wife, 'who would think a person could go on celebrating that long?'And then the fight started...============================================================I rear-ended a car this morning. So, there we were alongside the road and slowly the other driver got out of his car. You know how sometimes you just get soooo stressed and little things just seem funny?Yeah, well I couldn't believe it... he was a DWARF!!!He stormed over to my car, looked up at me, and shouted, 'I AM NOT HAPPY!'So, I looked down at him and said, 'Well, then which one are you?'And then the fight started...<>