Fire Proof

A few weeks ago we went with our church family to see the new movie Fire Proof. It is a great Christian based movie basically dealing with what a lot of people are dealing with in there marriages. It is not everyday that they make a movie for theater, that number one is a Christian based movie and number two a actually movie that you can learn from spiritually. Now, it seems that everyone is going crazy about this movie saying it changed their life etc. I really wish I could say that it changed my life and we are good now but it didn't. I didn't even cry while watching the movie. Everyone else(not sure about JR) did and I feel kind of guilty for not crying,I guess I have cried enough. I feel like I missed something. I feel like God spoke to everyone else while watching the movie but he forgot to talk to me. Since the movie came out our church has started a class based on it and I hear there will be sermons from it etc. I pray I can get something out it from that and maybe I can figure out what I missed. To tell you the truth I am kind of sick hearing about it. I think it is sad that it took a movie for some people to say "Oh now I got it, I need to change". I would hope that going to church and reading your bible would do that for you. Maybe we just live in a world that has to have that kind of thing for the light to go off and be like duh,now I get it. Most of you know JR and I have been through a lot this past year. The movie should have hit home but I guess we have been praying and working on our marriage long before the movie so maybe I felt we were past that point and not turning back. In writing this I am figuring out that since we were past it ,the movie just brought up a lot of hard feelings that I have worked so hard at forgiving and forgetting. It was like I was being reminded of our past every time I hear about Fire Proofing your marriage and we actually had to Fire Proof it and now I am done and ready to move on or at least trying to move on. Now I am not saying don't go see the movie because I am all for it and we need to show that the movie makers need to make more Chritaian movies, I just wish people wouldn't talk about it every Sunday and make me re-live the past! That's what's on my heart this morning :)