Am I a "Martha"?

JR says in class on Sunday that I am a Martha! Man, did that make me mad at first, but then I started thinking, is it bad to be a "Martha"? Yes, I would rather be a "Mary", the type to sit down and take time to enjoy and listen but then who is going to do all the work?? He also tells everyone my dirty little secret.....the one that I stress over everything to make sure the house is perfect before we have company. So sorry I like to have everything in order so when guest come over they wont see what kind of boxers he wears or what the kids wrote on the mirror when they got out of the shower that morning. I just like things neat and in their place :) What's so wrong with that?! I am here to say that I may be a "Martha" but for now on I will try to be more of a "Mary". BEWARE...you may find out a lot more about our family than you wanted too but he asked for it.
Have you seen the TV show 30 days? Maybe I will try to not care about things so much for 30 days to see how it goes. Here are some Bible verses to see where I am coming from, talking about the whole Martha vs. Mary thing. Luke 10:38-42 also something to think about is Philippians 3:7-8 and Luke 14:25-35

BLAH...

That is what I feel like today! BLAH!!!! I have a lump in my throat and I just want to scream and cry,cause at everyone and tell them where to go ( I know not very Christan of me). I have no idea why I feel like this but, I do. JR is having to work today (which working on a Saturday SUCKS) he will be gone all next week traveling back and fourth from the "camp",my work load is getting bigger and bigger,the kids are having a hard time at school lately and I am sick of it ALL! My emotions are so crazy right now. I am just sick of life in general I guess. I am SICK of my foot hurting,I am SICK of being over weight, I am SICK of having debt! As you can tell I am just not in a good mood right now. Sorry! I just needed to get it out. I want to do so much and I cant do any of it right now,its very frustrating! I could go on and on but I am sure no one cares. I know everyone has bad days and I know several of my friends are going through some hard times right now but damn-it I am sick of everyone going through all that they are going through! I need a warm sunny day I think...just sayin' :)

I know I should be thanking God for a lot of things that have gone well lately. Prayers have been answered so far concerning my Dad and my sister. Now, since all that has gone well, I feel guilty to ask for more. I feel like God will just say,"Goodness Helen, how much are you going to ask for!" I think I may have guilt issues on top of all my other issues :) MAN I need to see somebody...I know! That is what blogging is for, I guess!

Just need to get stuff off my chest :)

I've got nothin'

On Monday I had foot surgery so I have been laid up in this bed ever since. Laying in the bed for hours on end is NOT fun,it is more painful than anything. My back is killing me and my legs keep cramping. I don't see how all those "half ton" people on TLC do it! Sure, I have people bringing me stuff and I have a TV,computer and books to keep my entertained but I would rather be walking around cleaning and going places. It's the kids spring break and I fell horrible I am not able to take them anywhere. Zac has been at my parents house and Ali has been here taking care of me. What a Spring break! I know I suck!! :(

Before surgery the nurse got a black sharpy marker and wrote "yes" on the top of my foot! I cant get that off to save my life. I have scrubbed with soap,alcohol and fingernail polish remover and I still have it! It has faded some but still very noticeable. Why couldn't they have used a sticker or better yet just read the paper that said LEFT foot. just sayin'

I feel the pain killers kicking in again so I better go before I start on subjects that I don't need to get on while drugged!