Prayer

Lately a bunch of things have been going wrong with our home, pool, cars etc. It seems like when it rains it pours around here! I was complaining about it the other day and JR said," well its the way we are"....huh? He said we needed to pray more. Does God really put things in our life to remind us to pray? I thought I was good about praying. I feel like I pray all the time. I think it is the devil, but is he actually capable of doing that? Can the devil see our heart and hear what we are saying in our head? I think God only has that power, but what do think? Sometimes I feel if I say something out loud to someone then the opposite actually happens. It that the devil or God saying live day by day and not make plans for tomorrow? What do you think, does the Devil have powers ?

Small Groups

Do you think Small Groups are effective? I am struggling with this right now. I don't know if it is because my heart just isn't in it or that one of my sisters family is in the group, but I just don't see it making a difference in my life. We have met some great people that I wouldn't have met any other way. How long do you stay in a small group/life group and feel you are getting all that it has to offer before moving on the something different? If you have any stories or thoughts, they are welcome!

I've Noticed

Since having to watch so much TV while I am down and out I have noticed that commercials these days have more "real stars" in them. Have y'all noticed that? Is it because all the TV networks are canceling all the actually TV shows and moving toward "reality" TV shows where they don't have to pay as much to produce these shows ? Whats up with that? I want to watch drama not reality drama! Just sayin'

Am I a "Martha"?

JR says in class on Sunday that I am a Martha! Man, did that make me mad at first, but then I started thinking, is it bad to be a "Martha"? Yes, I would rather be a "Mary", the type to sit down and take time to enjoy and listen but then who is going to do all the work?? He also tells everyone my dirty little secret.....the one that I stress over everything to make sure the house is perfect before we have company. So sorry I like to have everything in order so when guest come over they wont see what kind of boxers he wears or what the kids wrote on the mirror when they got out of the shower that morning. I just like things neat and in their place :) What's so wrong with that?! I am here to say that I may be a "Martha" but for now on I will try to be more of a "Mary". BEWARE...you may find out a lot more about our family than you wanted too but he asked for it.
Have you seen the TV show 30 days? Maybe I will try to not care about things so much for 30 days to see how it goes. Here are some Bible verses to see where I am coming from, talking about the whole Martha vs. Mary thing. Luke 10:38-42 also something to think about is Philippians 3:7-8 and Luke 14:25-35

BLAH...

That is what I feel like today! BLAH!!!! I have a lump in my throat and I just want to scream and cry,cause at everyone and tell them where to go ( I know not very Christan of me). I have no idea why I feel like this but, I do. JR is having to work today (which working on a Saturday SUCKS) he will be gone all next week traveling back and fourth from the "camp",my work load is getting bigger and bigger,the kids are having a hard time at school lately and I am sick of it ALL! My emotions are so crazy right now. I am just sick of life in general I guess. I am SICK of my foot hurting,I am SICK of being over weight, I am SICK of having debt! As you can tell I am just not in a good mood right now. Sorry! I just needed to get it out. I want to do so much and I cant do any of it right now,its very frustrating! I could go on and on but I am sure no one cares. I know everyone has bad days and I know several of my friends are going through some hard times right now but damn-it I am sick of everyone going through all that they are going through! I need a warm sunny day I think...just sayin' :)

I know I should be thanking God for a lot of things that have gone well lately. Prayers have been answered so far concerning my Dad and my sister. Now, since all that has gone well, I feel guilty to ask for more. I feel like God will just say,"Goodness Helen, how much are you going to ask for!" I think I may have guilt issues on top of all my other issues :) MAN I need to see somebody...I know! That is what blogging is for, I guess!

Just need to get stuff off my chest :)

I've got nothin'

On Monday I had foot surgery so I have been laid up in this bed ever since. Laying in the bed for hours on end is NOT fun,it is more painful than anything. My back is killing me and my legs keep cramping. I don't see how all those "half ton" people on TLC do it! Sure, I have people bringing me stuff and I have a TV,computer and books to keep my entertained but I would rather be walking around cleaning and going places. It's the kids spring break and I fell horrible I am not able to take them anywhere. Zac has been at my parents house and Ali has been here taking care of me. What a Spring break! I know I suck!! :(

Before surgery the nurse got a black sharpy marker and wrote "yes" on the top of my foot! I cant get that off to save my life. I have scrubbed with soap,alcohol and fingernail polish remover and I still have it! It has faded some but still very noticeable. Why couldn't they have used a sticker or better yet just read the paper that said LEFT foot. just sayin'

I feel the pain killers kicking in again so I better go before I start on subjects that I don't need to get on while drugged!

Thursday Feb.26th 2009

On this day I would like everyone to note that I, Helen Diboll has NOTHING to do! This is the first day is a VERY long time that my phone is not going off reminding to be somewhere or to call someone to make an appointment! It feels so weird to just be at the house with nothing really to do. Now there is always a floor to vacuum(did yesterday) or a room to dust(yesterday as well) but I have all day so why do it all right now(again) :) Before the kids went to school I had the refrigerator cleaned out of all the old stuff and wiped out clean so I was on a roll before most were up today. So anyways, if you know me you will know that I am kind of in a shock not knowing what to do with my day or myself! I could go shopping but I don't think JR would like that too much or I could go in Zac's room and clean it out,but I don't think he would like that very much so WHAT SHOULD I DO TODAY?? just askin'.....

Saturdays

On Fridays I work with a lady helping her clean a house that she has been cleaning for 30 years. She is getting older and I was brought in to basically do things she cant do. We talk a lot and she asked me a question a couple weeks ago that I cant stop thinking about. She asked me " Why does the Church of Christ not keep the Sabbath day Holy"? She goes to church on Saturdays and they believe that Jesus wanted it that way. Her whole family besides her is Church of Christ and no one can answer that question for her. I personally couldn't answer the question either. I asked her what about taking the Lord's Supper on the first day of the week and she couldn't answer my question. I feel that Saturday's not kept Holy and it is not just the Church of Christ that doesn't keep it Holy. She said what gives us the right to change what the Bible says. I don't think we changed what the Bible says to do but she really made me think. What are your thoughts. Are we supposed to keep the last day of the week Holy?

Your thougths please....

What are your thoughts on re-baptism? I have had somebody recently be very passive when it came to the subject of re-baptism. I was going to ask why he thought the way he did but I didn't want to start something, so I thought I would start it here.

When I was around 12 years old I was at Youth In Action with my Youth group from church. One night all my friends went forward after one of the speakers spoke and I thought they were getting baptized, so I went forward and said I wanted to be baptized. Come to find out they were just asking for prayers! It was too late I had to go through with it. I didn't want to say PSYCH or just kidding, I was 12 years old remember, I was just doing what everybody else was doing...so when I got more mature and actually knew what baptism was about I wanted to get re-baptized for the RIGHT reasons. Now should have just not done that and I said "my bad God, now I get it" or was what I did the right thing? What are your thoughts. I was doing what I felt I needed to do.....just sayin'